Chapter 40

August 16, 2002 (Three days later) Morning.

"What is it that you want to show me, baby girl?" A warm smile made up his lips and he sat down on the edge of the Jacuzzi tub next to Kim. His hands ran up and down his thighs as he waited in anticipation.

She was holding something behind her back. "Look, Justin." She said very quietly, when she didn't have to speak so softly. "I feel so bad for what I did to you a few days ago. I know it's old as hell. But your arm is still hurting from what I did. I didn't mean to be so rough, you know? I hate to admit it, but I'm...well, I'm almost abusive, in a way. I'm acting out the abuse I suffered. I don't want to be that way. I won't ever do that again. It's a shame how much I hit you and push you and stuff. And also. I feel so bad for giving Calia my necklace. She kept telling me how pretty it was. I kept telling her it wasn't, and I was mad at you for when I saw you with Britney. So, I just let her have it. I feel so bad for that. You spent your hard earned money on something like that for me, and I just gave it away. I'm not trying to make up for what I did. I just made a personal side note to start showing you how much I love you. I thought I would start out by giving you this." She showed him a box, which was the mysterious object behind her back. She was excited about giving him his gift and she opened the box and giggled when his eyes widened at the brand new diamond necklace. "You and I should be sick of diamonds by now, but I know you love them. I think this is nice. And it has your initials on it. JRT." The JRT was inside of a diamond surrounded circle. And the necklace shown brighter than the sun.

"Oh, my God!" He was speechless.

"Here. Bend down, so I can put it on you. I know you are going to ask about the money I spent for it. Don't question me to death about it. Okay, Justin? Just take the gift and be happy. Do you like it?" She clipped it around his neck.

He had to take a deep breath before speaking. He was still very much suffering from what happened with Britney. He was drowning in guilt. Every time he looked into Kim's eyes, he felt a tad worse. Here he was three days later, finding it hard to even speak to her. He could tell she was truly apologetic for what she did. To be honest they were always apologizing to each other for something. "I...I love it." He swallowed his words down hard. "I did...I didn't expect anything like this from you. Thank you so much, Kim. THANK YOU, baby." He couldn't believe she would do something like this. He looked down at the chain and held the bottom of it. Covered in diamonds. He just wanted to scald her for doing such a thing, but he couldn't because she did it from the bottom of her heart. "I cannot believe this..."

She got up from the tub and stood in front of him. Kim was aware of Justin's strange behavior. He was acting somewhat slow, and she saw sadness in him. She automatically assumed it was because of her. "I'm so sorry, Justin. I told you I'm going to stop being so abusive. The way you looked, when you go home from that meeting with Johnny, made me cry. And so, I have another gift for you." He looked down at the tile. "Look at me, Justin." Slowly his head raised up, and his eyes met her eyes. She pulled the top of her robe open. "I love my job. I get so many free outfits and bikinis. I'm getting paid, baby. I'm getting paid. I get more than I deserve in my opinion. You know my agency pays me 200, 000 every two hours, during photo shoots. Thats awesome money!" She winked. "Okay, now seriously. First base. Second base." She pointed to the bikini top she had on. It had a one on the right side, and a two on the other. She tore her robe off and let it hit the floor. She showed him her bottoms, which looked like men's underwear, and they had a three centered on the front of them. "Third base." She said teasingly, with a raised eyebrow. She also had on boys socks with blue stripes across the top, pulled all the way up to her knees. "I know I look kinda, boyish. I wore this same bikini to the photo shoot I had two days ago." She turned around. "Like my pose, Justin?" Across her butt was the word 'Justin'. She turned back around. "Cute, huh? The Justin part can be home if you want it to be. JUST TOTALLY KIDDING!"

He slapped himself in the face to stop drooling. "Um...I...uh..."

"Awww, your stuttering."

It didn't matter how bad he felt. He could never deny the fact that she was beautiful. "DAMN!"

She giggled. "Oh my God. You spoke."

He shook his head. "I know you are hot, but DAMN! Just EYE CANDY! Can I have lick?" He asked non jokingly.

Her shadow covered his face. "Sure." She wasn't serious about her response.

Justin put both of his hands on her waist and gave her a nice wet lick on her stomach. "Umm, you taste as good as you look." He stood up and licked his lips.

She bit the tip of her finger. "I taste like nothing, Justin. People don't taste like...stuff."

"Thats what you think."

Kim wrapped her arms around Justin's neck. "I love you so much, baby."

"I love you too." His arms wrapped around her waist. "Thank you for all you've done this morning. Your an incredible person. And sexy. And sweet. And..." She kissed him on the lips and it shut him up.

Kim always wrapped her arms around Justin's neck when she kissed him. He was so much taller than her and it always allowed her extra height. They had a pattern going, and Kim was moaning because Justin's hands were unknowingly exploring her tanned body. Her lips would open wider, then close. Justin's tongue would meet hers, and retreat back, and then forward again.

They broke away from each other with their closed eyes.

"Justin...your. Your trying to take my sports bra off."

Justin took a step back from Kim and almost came into contact with the tub.

Kim sighed. "I love you so much, Justin. This is the life. Isn't it?

He was nodding.

"JUSTIN!" She pushed him off of her. "I don't want you. I have Nick. You have Kim. Your getting married! What are you doing? I love you too. As a friend. I thought you felt the same for me."

"JUSTIN!" She pushed him off of her. "I don't want you. I have Nick. You have Kim. Your getting married! What are you doing? I love you too. As a friend. I thought you felt the same for me."

"JUSTIN!" She pushed him off of her. "I don't want you. I have Nick. You have Kim. Your getting married! What are you doing? I love you too. As a friend. I thought you felt the same for me."

He rubbed his forehead trying to remove the thoughts from his head.

"JUSTIN!" She pushed him off of her. "I don't want you. I have Nick. You have Kim. Your getting married! What are you doing? I love you too. As a friend. I thought you felt the same for me."

"JUSTIN!" She pushed him off of her. "I don't want you. I have Nick. You have Kim. Your getting married! What are you doing? I love you too. As a friend. I thought you felt the same for me."

"Justin. You okay? You look like you are about to cry."

He sniffled. "No, I'm FINE!" He cleared his throat. "Ahem...just excuse me for a moment. Jade's been asleep all night, and she hasn't woken up yet. I better go check on her. God only knows what she's doing. She's already been sitting up. She might be standing up and talking now." He left the bathroom as fast as he could. His soul was aching, and his conscious was killing him. He let himself down knowing he lied to Kim. The only reason why he did lie to her was because he was afraid. He was so confused by what he did, there was no way Kim wouldn't be confused. And he tried to tell himself over and over again that he didn't love Britney, but the feelings were there, in his heart, and they were telling him other wise. He couldn't get over the fact that he lied to Kim. It just wasn't like him. And there was no doubt in the back of his mind, when he told her, she would loose trust in him. A tear drizzled down his cheek, and he sniffed harder than usual to keep his emotions hidden and bottled up.

His head reached over the rounded crib. Jade was in the center of it, dead a sleep, in just her diaper and a baby t-shirt. Her tiny hands twitched every few seconds. The more he viewed Jade, the more he became amazed by her. She was so precious. His first instinct, every time he saw her, was to hold her. She was the most perfect little baby. I didn't seem possible, but the more she grew, the more she looked like him. He was looking face to face with himself. His arms declined down towards her; he was about to pick her up.

"No, Justin. Don't wake her. Let her sleep for about an hour more."

A coldness came over his body and his heart almost stopped beating from her surprise presence. He turned to face her, and tried to calm down. "You scared me."

She laughed and kissed him on the cheek. "What's the matter with you, Justin? You've been acting so weird. Haha, like you have a secret to tell or something."

He did have a secret to tell. "I have been?"

She kissed him on the cheek again. "Yeah, you been acting sad or something. I don't know. Maybe I don't know what I'm talking about. Just smile, Justin. Stop looking so depressed. Is your arm still bothering you?"

"No." He shook his head and looked down at his hands. "My arm is fine."

She took his hand and pulled him out of the baby's room. "Good." She let his hand go and was talking to him, but he wouldn't look at her. "Justin..."

He finally placed his attention on her. "Huh?"

"What's wrong, Justin? WHAT is wrong?"

"Nothing is wrong." He said with a shaky voice. He was horrible at lying. He wasn't not good at it at all, and was struggling with not crying. He just wanted to cry to her, and tell her everything.

"Just tell me. I know you, baby. I know something is bothering you. What is it?"

He shook his head quicker. "Nothing is wrong! NOTHING! I'm fine, it's just that...I'm hungry. I want some cereal."

Her eyes zoomed in on him, to read his facial expression. "Are you being honest with me, Justin?"

This is the point where he had to tell her the truth or lie to her again. "Yes." After he said the word, he closed his eyes and could feel the tears building. He had to do something that was common of him and normal. His eyes opened and he saw the concern overtaking her face. He didn't know where he got the strength from, or how he pulled it off, but he kissed her gently on the lips. It was something he would have done usually. "I love you, you beautiful angel. I love you, baby girl." He gazed away from her. "I' to go downstairs and get some cereal. You want anything?" His eyes remained in the area of the stairs as he waited for her to answer.

"I love you too. And I'll just eat some of what you are having. I need to change clothes. This bikini is uncomfortable."


Kim turned out the light in the closet, after just changing, and carried herself to the bed. She laid out on Justin's side because he was on her side of the bed, with a huge bowl of cereal.

He handed her a spoon and moved over some to give her better access to the bowl. "I know you only like the crunch berries. So you eat those, and I'll eat all of the regular cereal."

She smiled with a nod. "Kay." She dipped the spoon into the milk and picked up several crunch berries with it. "So, what are we watching?" She asked crunching on them.

Justin was in the process of scooping him up some more cereal. "Oh, I'm not really watching anything. The TV is just on the news because it was on that channel when I turned it on."

She swallowed her second spoonful of cereal down. "You know what, Justin? It kind of scares me that Jade can lift her head. She's growing up so fast, Justin. She's growing up so fast."

"I know. It is scary. I have to agree with you on that one." He used his spoon to push several crunch berries her way.

"You got this huge bowl of cereal. You know we won't be able to finish it."

He shrugged and then naturally smiled. He was feeling slight guilty, but he felt better, because while downstairs getting the cereal he decided that he would tell Kim about what happen with him in Britney. He was going to tell her later tonight, while they were getting ready for bed. That would be the best time. "What we don't finish, we can just pour down the sink."

She laughed. "Yeah. But thats a total waste of money."

A breakthrough...he laughed. "YOU, worried about money? I'm pretty sure you can afford to throw away a box of cereal. Miss 200,000 every two hours."

Normally Kim would have pushed him. She promised to stop being so abusive so she gave him a look instead. His laughing only increased. She smiled. It was so nice to hear him laugh. "Oh, shut up. JRT! JRT! JRT!"

He tired to eat and laugh at the same time. "Thats my initials. Don't wear them out."

Kim leaned over the bowl and was trying to put some more cereal in her mouth, but she laughed and accidentally spit it back into the bowl. She tilted her head back and laughed harder at what she did.

"EW! Gross! You so nasty, girl." He said in a ghetto tone. He put his spoon back in the substance and was going to eat more. But the thought of regurgitated food floating in his cereal made his stomach turn. "Ut uh. I can't eat this." He said with a laugh. He placed the bowl down on the side of the bed. "Spit floating in the milk. That is so sick! Haha."

Kim sat up and laughed a few times before speaking. "Speaking of milk. I don't think I will start breastfeeding Jade again. I mean, she's getting older and bottles will do her fine until she starts eating crushed foods. It hasn't been very long since I stopped feeding her and already they are getting smaller. I'm so happy. Aren't they getting smaller?" She sat up on her knees.

"Aren't what getting smaller?" He asked looking directly at her chest, playing dumb.

"You know what I'm talking about."

"No, I don't." He said looking up into her eyes with a grin. "I'm just kidding. Your chest looks a little smaller, yes."

She moved her long blonde strands out of her face. "There are rumors going around about me." She reached over to the nightstand and placed the spoon she had in her hand on it. "People are saying I have breast implants. That is so not true. I hate rumors. Why do people say things like that anyways? I just had a baby...they get bigger."

Justin laid back and his head rested on Kim's pillows. "Your side of the bed smells so good. It smells like you. That Calvin Kline stuff." He inhaled loudly. "I think I know why people may think you have breast implants. Your...chest is very up there."

She crossed her arms. "What does THAT mean, Justin?"

"Perky. You know how you don't need bra? You just wear them because you think they are pretty. Thats what I mean. They are up...naturally up. You don't need a lift like some people."

She rolled her eyes in embarrassment. "OKAYYYY! Next subject please."

"Aww, look at that. The Tan-asian is turning red." He blurted.

Once again she had to hold the urge back to just smack him. "I am not." She said hiding her face with her hands.

"Yes, you are." He told her, smiling brighter than ever. He loved to pick on her when she was blushing.

She peeked her head up and tried to ignore the fact that her face was burning.

Justin sat his head up by rested it against his palm. "Your blessed, Kim. I told ya. Your perfect. You make me feel so...damn unpretty." He fake cried.

Kim cracked up. "Yeah right. You know how fine you are. You know exactly how fine you are. Thats why your so stuck up now." The way she said her words proved to Justin she was just kidding.

He waved his finger at her. "Ohhh your going to get it, baby." He captured her and tickled her sides.

She bunched the sheets up in her hands and laughed. "Justin, stop it. Haha. I hate it when you tickle me. You never stop. Haha. Please!"

Justin pulled her body closer to his, and tickled her more as she fought him, trying to get free. "I love tickling you. Your laugh is so cute and I love to hear it."

"HAHA! STOP! STOP IT! HAHA! STOP!" He let her go, and she rolled away from him, knocking the remote on the floor. She stopped laughing suddenly when she head moaning and groaning.

Justin and Kim's heads both turned towards the television. On the screen two people were heavily going at it, it was on the Playboy channel. "WHOA! I didn't know that was possible. Uh, Kim. Where's the remote? OH MY GOD!" He forced his eyes from the TV and stared at her.

She had frozen in shock. She never saw anything like that before.

Justin got up and changed the channel up a level, then turned the TV off. I don't know why we decided to get ALL channels available on cable. That is just...WILD! Maybe we should try that sometime, Kim." He sat down by her and wrapped his arms around her. "I was just playing. Why are you so shocked by what you saw?"

"Because, Justin...never mind." She crawled back up to the top of the bed and stared at him, hoping to think of something to change the subject. "Did you know your eyes changed colors? They are SO blue now. Like a whole different color."


"Yeah. You look different. Not in a bad way. You look even hotter. I'm digging the short hair now."

He smiled. "Thats good."

A Sharpie marker was laying on the bed for some reason and Kim picked it up and began to play with it. It gave her something to do, and it made her less self conscious because Justin was eyeing her strongly. "What are you staring at?"

He licked his tongue at her. "You and your gorgeous face."

She took the top off of the marker and winced at the awful odor that came from it. "Draw something on me, Justin. I don't care what. I'd love to have a temporary tattoo.

He moved up the large bed, and took the marker from her. "Draw what?"

She bit her lip. "Doesn't matter."

"Where do you want me to draw it? Perhaps third base?" He laughed and shifted ever closer to her. "Seriously, where?"

"Very funny, Justin...the third base thing. Anyway, put it somewhere that is not that noticeable. Because I have another modeling photo shoot to do tomorrow and I'll be wearing a lot of bikini's, get my point."

"Yeah, okay. Lay back."

She laid back and put both of her arms by her sides.

Justin's hands met the trim on her rubber waisted shorts and he daringly began to pull them down. "I'm going to draw something kind of in the third base area okay? Not down that far, but in the area."

She giggled. "Okay."

He pulled her shorts completely off and glared up at her face to make sure what he was doing was okay. "Alright, I'm about to leave my mark." He lower himself and held the Sharpie marker tight. He moved the material, of her black bikini style underwear, over a little. Not too much. Just as he was about to write something. His head sunk into the covers of the bed and he had a laughing fit. "OH HECK NAW!"

Kim sat her head up. "What?"

"No you didn't, Kim.'t."

She laughed. "What?"

He lifted his head in a struggle. "Your underwear. Just eat it? JUST EAT IT?" His head dropped down again.

Her underwear had 'Just eat it' written in small text but bold letters, right in the center. "I totally forgot I was wear those underwear."

He managed to gain some sanity, but was shaking his head at her. "Where do you get things like that? Just eat it? Thats freaking hilarious."

"I got them at the mall or some store. I can't remember. Just draw my tattoo, Justin." Her head rested back again.

"Okay...okay." He sucked up his case of the giggles and took back to his position. In the low corner of her hip he wrote the letters 'JRT'. It was all he could think off. Besides, drawing was not one of his specialties.

When he stopped writing, Kim sat up to see what he had drawn. She used a finger to move her underwear out of the way, and she saw the JRT. "Cute. You wrote you name on me. I guess I am officially yours."

Justin pulled her shorts back up on her. "Yeah. You sure are." He kissed over her belly button before laying at the same angle as she.

Kim snatched the marker from him. "Okay, now let me do you."

He lowered herself to the area of his draw-stringed pants and undid the drawstring, followed by yanking them down. "Wait, girl. Do know that I do not wax like you. I like to keep my manhood. You might come in contact with something you don't want to."

Kim smiled. "Oh I know. Don't worry, I can deal." Her hand brought down his boxers. When they were hanging off of his hip nicely, she stopped. It took all the courage in the world to get rid of her bad thoughts. He was looking good enough to eat. She wrote Kim on his soft flesh, followed by a smiley face. When she finished drawing on him, she rejected back to get an image of him as he was, and keep it like that. His pants were pulled down him. His boxers was pulled down enough to see the crease of his hip. She was getting hot flashes. "Done."

He looked at what she did and laughed. "Oh no. A smiley face? But thats girly."

"So." He pulled his boxers all the way up, and she just wanted to say "Aww, man." But she didn't.

"Well, I guess I officially belong to you, Kim. I have your territory mark on me. Does permanent marker come off?"

She scratched her head. "Yeah. Of course it comes off. It wares away after a while or it come of with alcohol. I should know. I used to write on myself with them all the time."

He pulled his pants back up on him and tied the drawstring.

Kim when into the closet and was searching for something. When she found what she was looking for, she held the items up in her hands. "Want to go skating, Justin? Look! Sneaker skates." Sneaker skates were platformed sneakers, but they had rollers on them "Aren't these so cute? They were like six hundred dollars, but when I saw them. I had to get them."

"Those ARE cute, but skating?"

Her eyes rolled around. "Rollerbalding for you. Want to rollerblade?"

He ran his fingers through his hair. "Kim, you know were can't go rollerblading. We can't just leave Jade like that."

She finger gestured him to come closer. "Let me do something with that short hair of yours. Can I spike it? I think you would look good with spiked hair."

He did as she said and was sitting on the very edge of the bed.

Kim grabbed some Paul Mitchell spray gel and a small comb from the dresser. She began to soak his hair with the spray and then comb it upwards. "I know we can't just leave Jade. We have baby monitors all over the house now. I was talking about skating around the house."

He was watching her in the mirror, as she made his hair stick up. "Skating around the house? Why? So one of us can kill ourselves?"

She lifted his head, by pulling up his chin, so she could see how the spiked hair looked on him. It suited him very well. "Cool. Your hair looks great like that."

He reached up and touched some of it. "Cool." He replied with a happy smile.

She threw the hair accommodations back on the dresser and sat down to slip her feet into the sneaker skates. She tied them up quickly. "These things are so comfy." She stated, rising up. She skated across the carpet. It was difficult.

"Kim, don't tell me you really are skating in the house?"

"Yup." She skated out of the room. "I'm about to skate down the stairs."

He checked his hair in the mirror, then ran after her and swept her off of her feet. "You are NOT skating down the stairs. I'll take you down them." He held her, like a groom would his bride, and carried her down the everlasting mound of stairs. When he reached the bottom he placed her feet against the floor and she instantly began to skate around.

"These things make me feel like I'm floating. I love them."

"Your going to skate in the house? ON the polished MARBLE?"

"Yes. I AM!" She started to dance wile skating. "I feel like one of those people from the 70's. She continued with her disco dancing. "Ha ha ha ha, stayin' alive. Stayin' alive. Ha ha ha ha, stayin' alive. Stayin' alive."

Justin laughed and rubbed his eye lid. "Ha ha ha ha, CRACK HEAD! CRACK HEAD!" He walked into the middle of the marble and Kim began to circle him.

"Your not fun, Justin. Can't you live a little?" She held his hands and pulled him in circles.

He had to follow her in circles or she would fall. He didn't want her to fall. "I am living. Your just a nut."

She let his hand go and skated away from him. "Is that so? Look at me, Justin. Watch this. You think I'm a nut, huh? I'm the master at skating. I can do a back flip in skates."

He held his hands out in explanation. "Kim, don't do anything like that. Your going to KILL yourself. Your going to get hurt."

"Just watch me." She bent all the way back. When her hands touched the floor, she lifted her body in the air, and slowly back flipped. As her feet were coming back towards the floor she did a split. "Ta da! Told ya! A back flip that ended with a split. Not that is talent, baby. Bet you can't to it." She pointed at him.

"I know I can't do it."

"I can do a lot in skates. I just can't break dance in them. I've always wanted to learn." She began to spin around on her back. She was break dancing, she just didn't realize she was.

Justin cover his face with his hand, and laughed at her while shaking his head. "Kim...your a retard." Could she get any cuter? He loved her so much, for being so happy and free. She was acting as if she was a happy child, which made him happy, because she was never able to be happy as a child. She was so fun, and out going, and...talented. By the time he picked his head up. She was standing again.

"That spiked hair looks so good on you. And yeah. I'm a retard. Five plus five is two. I live in' vagina', and I am 'C' years old." She poked at him with her fingers and had her head tilted to the side to look crazy.

He was laughing so hard he thought he would be sick. "Get away from me, FREAK!"

She laughed as she began to skate backwards. "I am a freak...when it comes to intimacy. I be freaking your brains out, Justin. I'm learning how to make YOU scream." She winked at him.

He grinned. "Whatever you say. I didn't know you could skate backwards."

"AW, look at you. Tryin' to change the subject 'cus you know what I said is true."

He had to laugh once at what she said. "I wasn't trying to to CHANGE the subject, Kim. And you call yourself trying to get ghetto on me again?"

She approached him and put her face close to his. "I told you I was da number one stunna up in this bitch. You see, Lil' Bow Wow. We TIGHT like dat. I hope you understand. He got my stuff, I got his. You know what I'm sayin'? I was tellin' my dog the otha day. Don't be givin me my G's in checks. I want my shit in cash, 'cus you and I both know...ain't no money in yo bank account."

Justin pulled her to his chest and held her. He rocked them together and was laughing harder than he could ever remember. "My poor baby done went psycho. Lord knows I love you, Kim. Your so fucking funny."

She pinched him. "I had to get you for that one. Thats the mother of all bad words."

"Whoops. Anyways, you are just so funny. And..." He broke down laughing again and started clapping his hands. "Bank account...oh my God. No you didn't." He stumbled into the kitchen laughing, and vanished. He reappeared, and continued to laugh. He was still clapping his hands. "I have to give you props for that one. Girl, your my baby. I love you, Kim. I have to love you. Who else will claim you? As crazy as you are." He kissed her on the cheek.

"You better claim me, Justin. You've left your mark on me. I'm your property, bea-beh." She pushed his chest teasingly and then made an erotic motion with her tongue.

Justin's eyes widened. "What's gotten into you, girl?"

"I don't know. I think it's the crunch berries."

They laughed together.


That night. (9:45)

Kim raised her hand out of the water to caress Justin's face as he kissed her passionately.

One of his hands were on her thigh and he would squeeze it from time to time, when the kiss they were sharing became too much for him. All in all he was feeling much better. He was some how able to block out the conflict between him and Britney. His plan to tell Kim what happened, still stuck. They had a wonderful day together. It was almost as if they spiritually came closer.

His tongue explored her mouth deeper and her groan transferred from her lips to his. His free hand pulled her tighter to him.

Their kiss had progressed to as far as a kiss could go. They were seriously making out. The session had been going on for a while. Kim pulled back from Justin. And breathing erratically she didn't say anything, just stared into his eyes. Her eyes roamed his face and she just wanted to die from how good he look. He was wet, and had water leaking down the side of his face. Beads of water running down his bare chest, wiggling through his new necklace. She couldn't gaze at him for too long because he began to kiss her on the neck. Kim moaned and held his head in place. "" He breathed as he kissed her. ""

The water they were in was already hot. The hotness they added to the steaming water was almost overwhelming.

Both of them heard a baby's whimper echo through the house, from the baby monitors.

Kim slumped over Justin's lap, in which she was sitting, in frustration. "I guess I better go get Jade. I think she's hungry. I was getting wrinkled anyway. We've been in the Jacuzzi way too long. She sighed and tried to blow off some of the heat that surrounded her.

"Okay." Justin whispered. He was breathing too fast for his own good. He really didn't want her to go. He was so into her, that he just wanted to pull her back into his arms and kiss her some more. He held on to her hand and she walked up the steps of the Jacuzzi. When she reached the point of the top, he let her go. She picked up a towel that was on the ground and started to dry herself with it. She was wearing a dark red bathing suit. It exposed her stomach but tied all the way down it, until it met her bottoms. It fitted her body so perfectly that it didn't budge at all when she moved. It just stayed attached to her, like it was skin. "You are so hot." He said his thought out loud.

She turned around and he could see the 'JRT' written very low on her hip. Right in her bikini zone. "Thank you. So are you."

He sat up and had to stretch because Kim's weight was sitting on him for so long he got cramped up. He followed her up the steps and adjusted the shorts he was wearing. "You can change, Kim. I'll get Jade and feed her." Kim handed him the towel and he began to dry his chest with it.

She was smiling too much and she tugged on his shorts until she could see the tattoo she had made on him. "Damn, you are fine. You should be one of those Calvin Kline underwear models."

Together they exited the pool room and they took the tiring walk through the house, to get upstairs to Jade. Kim took the route to the bedroom, while Justin took a route to Jade's room. "Damn, it's cold in here." He said, wondering why he kept the air running if he hated it so much. He wrapped the towel around his waist, and picked up Jade, who was not fully crying. "Shhhh. Your okay. Your okay." He told her softly. The baby quieted some, and after a few more whimpers she stopped crying all together. Justin kissed her on the cheek. "Thats a good girl." He felt her diaper and she was a little wet, so he placed her on the changing table to change her. "You are just such a sweet little girl. Yes, you are." He spoke to her as he changed her. "I love you so much, Jade. I really hope you are happy. I want you to always be happy. I want you to be a good girl too. Daddy wouldn't be able to take it if you turned out to be a bad girl." He had changed her diaper successfully and picked her up, and held her to his damp chest. Jade shivered and it reminded him to cover her with a blanket. After he did so, he took Jade out of the room, and into the room which Kim had just finished dressing. "I think she just needed a diaper change."

Kim kissed Justin on the lips. And he responded to her by pulling his lips back and then pressing them against hers again. She took Jade from him and kissed her on the head. "Your so wonderful with her, Justin."

He smiled kindly from her statement and then went into the closet to change into dry clothes. "I try to be. She's so beautiful, Kim."

Kim giggled. "What does that mean? Are you bragging about your looks? Because you both look exactly alike."

His head peeked from the closet so she could see his facial expression. "No, Kim. I didn't mean it like that. You know what I meant."

Her eyes lit up. "Are you naked, Justin?" He didn't respond to her. She placed Jade in the center of the bed and hurried to the closet to take a glance at him. "You are naked." She said overly excited.

His head snapped towards her. "What are you doing?"

"Nothing." She said innocently. Her elbow rested against the door.

"Where's the baby, Kim? And what are you doing, girl?" He asked, squinting his forehead in confusion.

She kept looking down at him and was smiling so childishly. "I'm staring at you. What does it look like?"

He put some boxers on and pulled them up. "I don't get it. Are you like obsessed with looking at me naked now?"

She shook her head. "No. I just understand why you like to watch me get dressed. It's...a learning experience." She ended her sentenced with a roar of mad laughter.

Justin laughed himself. "I like the good old days when you were scared of seeing me. Now, it's like every time I change, or get dressed, or take a SHOWER, your there." He pulled on a sweatshirt and yellow sweatpants. "Not that that is a bad thing." He exited the closet, and saw Kim rocking Jade in her arms.

"Forgive me for looking at my husband!" She told him with a fake attitude.

He licked his tongue at her. " I'm not your husband. Were engaged, but I'm not your husband yet." He mocked her very words.

She licked her tongue back at him. "Yes, you are."

"No, I'm not."

She tried to keep a straight face. "You are in my heart, and thats all that matters." She threw his words back at him.

Justin laughed and pointed at her. "Good one, Kim. Reeeeeal good one." He smacked his hands together. "Lets go downstairs feed Jade."

They went downstairs and Justin used a bottle warmed to heat up a bottle for the baby. When it was ready, he brought it into the living room and sat next to Kim, who was holding Jade. Kim handed him Jade and he tested the warmth of the bottle to his wrist, before sticking it in her mouth. Jade sucked the nipple on the bottle rhythmically. He awed at the baby, because every time she swallowed the milk, she made a cute sound. She would pause every now and then to take a breather.

"She's so cute." Kim whispered. "God, she looks just like you. Thats some strong ass sperm." She covered her mouth with her hand. "Oh no. I didn't mean to say that in front of her." Justin looked down and was blushing. "No, Justin. I didn't mean it like that. I mean it's. I mean when comes out a lot...NO! I mean yes! I um...I was just trying to say your like...body is the reason for Jade's looks. And you have more in her than I do. She is like all your chemical make up. Man, I can't explain. Now I feel stupid."

He coughed and slowly looked back up. "Mind talking about something else. And not my...sperm, Kim."

She giggled and was blushing herself. "I'd love to talk about something else. Sorry about saying those things..."

He closed his eyes and wanted to relieve the burning in his face. "It's okay. It's okay." Jade began to cough up milk. She was full. He pulled the bottle from her mouth and wiped the edges of it with a blanket. He put the baby on his shoulder and patted her back. It only took her a few seconds to burp. "Kim. Kim, is she throwing up?"

Kim looked over his shoulder. "Uh, yeah"

He pulled the baby from his shoulder and looked back at it. She had not only thrown up on him, she did on the couch as well.

Kim used the blanket, that was around Jade, to wipe up the spit up. She did the same for the couch.

When she was finished, Justin kissed her on the lips. "Thank you, sweetie."

"Your welcome. We are lucky baby throw up doesn't smell bad. If it did, the leather would be ruined on the couch."

He rocked Jade gently. "I know. Baby throw up smells good."

Kim gave him a little nudge. "Your a sicko."

He had an evil grin on his face. "It's true. You know it's true."

The phone rang.

Kim jumped up. "I'll get it." She snatched the cordless phone from it's base. "Hello, Timberlake residents." She put the phone down and giggled because she knew Justin hated when she answered the phone that way.

"Hi. This is Polina, Kim."

"Hey, Polina. How are you doing?"

"I'm doing great. I'm so sorry for calling so late. I just wanted to tell you that your dress in ready. Your 'huge' dress is complete. Unfortunately Mr. Timberlake's suits are not ready yet. The bridesmaids dresses aren't ready yet either, but your dress is."

"My dress is ready? COOL!"

"Yeah. You can come and get it fitted whenever you like."

Kim thought to herself for a moment. "That is great. I'll have to get back to you and find out what day I can come. I have so much to do this week and I'm not sure what days I have free."

"Thats fine. Just let me know."

"Okay, I will do that. And thank you, Polina."

"Oh. You are very welcome, Kim. I'll talk to you later. Bye bye."

"Bye bye." Kim cut the phone off and jumped up and down excitedly. "MY DRESS IS READY! MY DRESS IS READY!"

Justin bounced his head with her movements. "Yes, I heard."

"It's going to be so beautiful. I know it is. And big. I've always wanted a big dress."

Justin laughed at her. "You look like a teeny bopper. LIKE OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!" He lifted up Jade's head some, because she had fallen asleep and it was bent abnormally.

"I'm happy about my dress, so sue me." She shrugged and was about to jump some more, but the doorbell rang. "Who could that be at this time of night? I'll get the door."

Justin watched her switch to the door. Kim seemed to be shocked when she saw who it was. He could not see who the person was, or what they were saying, but she had a surprised look about her.

She slowly approached him and held her hands, while looking down. "Justin, the door is for you."

He met eyes with her. "Who is it?"

"It's Nick. I asked him to come in, he said it was okay, and that he needed to 'talk' to you. What does he want you for? I thought ya'll hated each other."

Justin looked in the area of the door. "Kim, take Jade and put her in her crib. Will ya?"

The look on his face confused the hell out of her but she took the baby and headed upstairs with her.

Justin had an idea what Nick wanted. It probably had something to do with someone named Britney. He walked out of the open door and closed it behind him. In the darkness of the night, but the lightness of the porch lights, he could see Nick in a green sweatsuit, much like his. "WHAT?" He asked angrily.

Nick gripped Justin by shirt and slammed him up against the brick of the house. "You have got some God damn nerve touching Britney. You were touching her breasts and kissing her? Telling her you love her? You went too far, Justin. I'm going to kick you mother fucking ass."

"The bitch told you, huh? I knew she would tell people. Look, Nick. I'm not going to fight you, man. I understand your upset. I would be too if you did the same thing to Kim, but I've known Britney way longer than you, and I can't help the fact that I may still have feelings for her. I don't want your girl, man. You can have Britney. I don't want her. I realize that clearly now. I made a mistake."

Nick hit him up against the wall again. "You want her. I know you do. And I'm going to kick your ass." His fists were holding Justin's shirt so tight, they were leaving imprints, from the pressure he was creating, on his neck.

Justin shook his head at him to warn him. "Get the fuck off me, man. If you wanna fight me, we can do it somewhere else, because Kim and my daughter are in the house and I won't be fighting and shit around them. Get the fuck off me."

"I cannot believe you were actually kissing her. Oh my God. Have you lost your fucking mind? No! We are going to fight right here. Right now." He let Justin go and took several steps away from him.

"I don't know why..." He felt the impact of a punch against his jaw. His lip was not busted, but the inside of it got cut from one of his teeth. He could taste the blood in his mouth, and spit it out on the ground beside him. He put a hand to his face and was stunned Nick was brave enough to hit him. "You punched me in my DAMN jaw!" He held back his anger. "I said I wasn't going to fight you. I suggest you get in your damn car and go."

"You just cant deal with the fact that Britney is with me now. You just have to have her. NOT THIS TIME! Maybe I should grab Kim in there and give her a nice fuck. See how you like that. HA! I bet you bore the hell out of her with you pencil dick." He punched him in the stomach.

Justin just lost it. He picked Nick up and threw him, with all of his might, into the front doors. He his the doors so hard he receded off of them and hit them again. "DON'T YOU EVER TALK ABOUT KIM LIKE THAT! DON'T YOU EVER!" He punched Nick right in the face, and he fell to the ground. He then held him by his hair and got into his face to yell at him some more. "BITCH! I WISH YOU WOULD TRY TO MESS WITH KIM! I'LL FUCKIN' KILL YOU! YOU GAY ASS BITCH! WHY DON'T YOU JUST COME OUT AND SAY IT? TELL THE WORLD YOU ARE GAY! I SHOULD MAKE YOU SUCK MY D..."

Kim opened one of the doors. "What are you...WHAT IS GOING ON? Your fighting?" Nick had a bloody face. Justin was holding him and was obviously fired up. Blood was coming from the side of his lip. "WHAT IS GOING ON?"

"Oh, nothing, Kim." Nick said with a laugh. "I just came by here to kick Justin's ass for kissing Britney and touching her three days ago. He came on to her and was just about ready to fuck her. Why do you look so sad, Kim? I thought you knew. Didn't Justin tell you what he did?"

"Fuck!" Justin said, knowing he had some explaining to do.

"Justin..." Kim began sadly. "Is what he said true?"

Justin threw Nick's head against the ground and got up. He put his hands out to reach out to her, but he decided it was a bad idea. "Baby, let me explain. I was going to tell you everything tonight. I really was. I swear to God." Nick began to laugh at him. He kicked him. "Get the hell out of here. Get off of my God damn property before I call the cops. Go sell yourself for money and give blow jobs to old men." He slammed the door closed. Kim was walking away from him with her head down. "Kim..."

She spun around in anger. "YOU LIED TO ME, JUSTIN!" A tear ran down her cheek. "I could understand if Britney got sick again and she bother you. But you came on to her? How disgusting!" She continued to storm upstairs.

He followed her. "I know I lied. I am so wrong for it. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt you, Kim. I don't know what happened." They had made it into the bedroom, and Kim was sitting down on the bed with her arms crossed. "I don't know what came over me. I think you were right. I still love Britney. But I don't love he as much as I love you, and I...don't want her. I want you. All I did was kiss her and I touched some of her plastic. But is was in infatuation because I was loosing it. I don't nearly love her as much as I love you. I just happened to see her at a moment where I was weak. I'm so sorry, baby. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt you." By now he was crying. He ignored the bloodiness of his mouth completely. Her eyes were glittering too much, and were glassy. Another tear rolled down her cheek. " I wish I knew why I did what I did, but I don't. I don't know why I kissed her."

Kim was biting her lip because it was trembling, but stopped to speak. "So you are telling me, you were kissing Britney, but she didn't want you to kiss her and it was all YOU?"

He nodded and a few cries broke through his words. "Yeah. I didn't mean to lie to you, baby." He sniffled. "I never went to the meeting with Johnny. I just left. I lied about that too. That is why Johnny has been calling me so much and I've been avoiding his calls. I missed the meeting...oh, Kim. I'm so sorry, baby. I feel so bad for what I did. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to do what I did to Britney. I guess I just freaked out, because she was telling me to stop and she had to push me away to make me realize what I was doing. I know you don't want to hear that, but I have to tell you everything."

She rolled her eyes, and was unbelievably, calm when normally she would be raging. "I'm going to bed. I have to wake up really early to do an early morning photo shoot. I'm going to bed."

She wasn't really showing it, but Justin knew she was upset. "Kim..." His own tears were rolling down his cheeks. "Are you mad at me?"

She pulled the covers back and got underneath them.

He was being ignored, and he knew it. He was fine with it. At least she didn't go off on him. He was quite shocked that she didn't. He wiped the wetness away from his cheeks. He felt worse than he did about lying to her. He felt horrible for what he did. After having a pretty decent relationship he had to do something like kissing Britney. Now he didn't know where they stood. He was not able to tell how hurt Kim was. She was showing no emotion whatsoever. She did shed a few tears, but what did they mean? Justin wiped his wet cheeks again. "I love you, Kim." He said in a pathetic, low, cry.

Justin VS Nick

note- I just wanted everyone to take notice to how Kim reacted to what Justin did. She didn't blow up like she usually would. She didn't even yell at him. I just wanted you to recognize that. =)

Chapter 41

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