8- Part 2
"Ok baby whatever you say," he said and walked out. I sighed and put my arms on the side of the tub. The cool air sent chills up my spine and I slipped deeper into the still hot water. I heard a door close and I waited for Justin to appear in the bathroom again. But he didn't all I heard was the playing of the jazz music and the buzzing of the jets beside me. I shrugged and hummed with the jazz music softly. I picked up a sponge and filled it with water then squeezed it out on my shoulders. I repeated the action on my other shoulder and relaxed. My body is aching is starting to ache. I hate feeling weak like this. I I pretend that I’m the strong one that I can handle the pain and everything but I can’t. I just wish this was all over and I could get back to my life and live the way I want to with out all this fear. "Whew girl don't be doing that if you don't plan on doing things to back up that action," I looked up and Justin was standing in the doorway. I sat my sponge back down and took a deep breath.
"What do you think of when you look at me," I asked. He climbed back in the tub and sat down.
"I think about a lot of things when I look at you," he said smiling me.
"Like what," I asked and stuck my hands in the water and pulled my knees up close to me.
"Like how you have no idea how beautiful you really are," he said tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. I looked up and to my surprise he had moved up close to me. He shot a shy reassuring grin towards me. "How innocent you are to so much," he whispered. I looked back down at the bubbles and closed my eyes. He gently lifted up my chin so that I was staring in his two blue pools he has for eyes. "How smart you really are. How incredibly strong you are. How lucky I am to be with you. That's what I think about when I look at you," he said looking deep into my eyes. I bit my lip as I looked down. The last thing I feel right now i strong and beautiful. "Don't look down baby. I want to see your eyes," he whispered. I looked up and tilted my head to the side. "So beautiful," he said stroking the side of my face.
"Justin you are going to make my face turn red," I said.
"It already is," he said smiling. I put my hands on my cheeks and looked down. "So cute," he said laughing a little.
"Don't laugh at me. It's not funny," I said and tried not to smile.
"Why are you smiling then," he asked. I pressed my lips together and scowled my eyebrows.
"I'm not," I said. He laughed.
"Cameron you are so funny sometimes," he said and leaned back on the tub. I sighed took my position back. It was uncomfortably silent.
"I called britney earlier," he nodded. "I think we’re cool again. I guess. I really don’t know. She’s a hard one to figure out. Kinda like you," I said mumbling the last little part. He smiled.
"What’s that supposed to mean," he asked.
"I can just see why you two were together for so long. That’s all," I said quietly and pressed my hand against the jet.
"What do you mean? Britney and I are nothing alike. How can you say something like that? We were together so long because I was afraid of what would happen with the fans and the media. Ok it had nothing to do with how compatible we were,” he snapped. I opened my eyes wide and drew back like I was afraid of him.
"Eeekk. Sorry for bringing it up," I said softly. he took a deep breath and smiled.
"I just hate hearing that. You and me that’s compatible. Me looking at you and being able to tell what’s wrong is compatible. Britney being two faced is not," he said.
"Ok baby,” he smiled and rubbed his hand on my leg. “You are so cute when you get mad," I said. He shook his head. “Anyway i was thinking about doing some Christmas shopping tomorrow.”
“You know Mike is going to have to go with you,” I rolled my eyes and sighed deeply.
"That's so stressful," I said and closed my eyes. "I just wish I could be normal. I don't like doing all this stuff. I hate having a gate and a code. I hate having to plant trees for privacy. And I hate not being able to grocery shop myself," I said.
"Sweetie that's just how it's got to be. I know it's hard but we'll find somewhere that you can shop at and not be bothered. And the trees will make the yard better. And the gate is cool. You're just going to have to get used to it," he said. I sighed. It's hard going from not caring if people see you are whatever to having to worry about your safety. It’s just really annoying more then anything. I want to go to Disney World and all those places. I want to go to the mall by myself. But I can't it's more stress then it needs to be. "We'll have fun. We'll go to the club and go to all the attractions. Don't you worry. You want even realize that you have security," I smiled.
"So what's this about you guys going out tonight," I asked and picked up some bath milk and poured a little in. He smiled and bit his lip. "What is it honey," I asked.
"If you don't want me to go then you say it and I'm here," he said quickly.
"Do you want to go," He shrugged. "Where are you going," I asked.
"Well for everyone's twenty-first birthday they took them to a strip club. So since we are all in town now. The guys want to take me out since I didn't go when I turned twenty-one," I nodded and moved the bath water around. I don't want him to know that I don't like it at all. "But I won’t go if you don't want me to. They just want to get my mind of things I guess," he said. I looked at him.
"I mean I don't think any girl is going to be like yeah baby go watch some females take their clothes off. I don't mind," he nodded in agreement.
"Just don't get yourself in trouble," I said and lifted my leg.
"That's it," he asked. I looked up at him.
"What do you want me to say," I asked smiling.
"I thought you were going to tell me not to go," he said honestly. I shook my head.
"I believe that you won’t go there and act like an idiot so why would I say no. Besides if the situation was reversed I would think you would let me go," I said. He laughed. "Oh you wouldn't," I asked.
"Honestly no," he said. I raised my eyebrows surprised that he had said no.
"Really," I asked. He nodded.
"It's my jealous streak running through my body and fear of not being adequate," he said.
"What do you mean," I asked.
"I mean maybe you'll see something and you'll be like wow. Justin is
lacking in that department," I laughed and shook my head.
"That want happen baby. Mr. Winky is all that I need," I said. He laughed and shook his head.
"It sounds so funny coming from you. I just can't even imagine you talking like that. You're so innocent and I've corrupted you," he said. I shook my head smiling.
"No way I am not as innocent as you think I am," I said giggling. He raised his eyebrows.
"Is that right," he asked.
“I got moves you’ve never seen," I said just like Julia Roberts said in that movie. He smiled and looked at the wall. He nodded and looked back.
"I guess you’re going to have to show me sometime,” he said softly. I raised one of my eyebrows and blow some of the bubbles. he shook his head again trying to digest what I said. “Mmm well I guess I better go get something to eat," Justin said. I looked at him. "What do you want. Broth, broth, or broth." He asked trying to be funny.
"You are so hilarious Justin Timberlake," I said and stood up. Everything was silent. I looked over at Justin as I wrapped a towel around my body. His jaw was on the floor and he was just looking at me. "What," I said.
"You can't just stand up like that," he muttered. I smiled and stepped out.
"Why do I not look good naked," I asked innocently.
"That is not it at all. You just have this way of making me forget what I have to say," he said. I tucked the corner of the towel under my arm and shook my damp hair out. "Damn," I looked back at Justin and he had the towel around his waist.
"What," I asked. But I don't think he heard a thing I said. He was licking his lips and had this cheesy smile across his face.
"Cameron just give me ten..." He trailed off and shook his head. "Just forget what I was saying," he said. I smiled and walked into my closet. I closed the door and pulled out my drawer with my underwear. It was scarce. I don't know where it all went but I need some more. The door opened and I was surprised and a little scared. I tried to grab something to cover up, cause the towel was laying in a blue heap on the floor.
"Justin don't you knock," I asked and turned my back to him. He walked in closing the door behind him.
"Did I scare you," he asked. His voice softy and sexy. I swallowed hard.
"Yes," I said quietly. His hands touched my bare waist and I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. His simple touch put every nerve in my body on alert. He rubbed his hands down my thighs and I opened my mouth.
"I'm sorry," he whispered in my ear as one of his hands moved back up my stomach.
"It's ok," I muttered hardly audible.
"Let me make it up to you," He whispered and nibbled on my ear.
"Ok," I said and leaned my head back on his chest. What a day I'm having!
*********** Justin *************
I walked downstairs with a hat on my head and jeans with a white T-shirt on. I couldn't stop smiling at all. The harder I tried the bigger the smile. All the guys were sitting on the couch again. They came over for this night that we're supposed to have. I kinda want to go but then again I don't. Why should I go when I got the real thing right here for free? I heard laughing and I looked at Chris. I reached the bottom of the stairs and walked over towards them.
"What," I asked.
"Right there baby. Oh shit. Ah damn. Oh fuck," Chris said mimicking me. I laughed and shook my head.
"Why are you guys easing dropping. I mean damn," I said and picked up my keys and wallet from off the table.
"Like we had much of a choice. You two are no joke. It's like there is an intercom in your room," Joey said.
"It's all Cameron," I said quietly.
"No don't you put that on her. We really heard you towards the end so stop tripping," I laughed and shook my head.
"Was the door opened," JC asked.
"Naw we were in her closet," I said. They busted out laughing and I shook my head.
"What's so funny," I looked up and Cameron was walking down the stairs. She looked so hot in one of my half shirts I wear to work out and some tiny gray shorts.
"Nothing baby. There are just a bunch of perverts down here," I said as she walked over to me. I could tell she didn't have a bra on and the top was sneaking up a little to high. You could see the bottom of her breast. I pulled down on it and she smiled. "You have a bra to put on," I asked quietly. She shook her head no.
"That's what I wanted to tell you. I need to go underwear shopping," She said. I lifted the top of the shirt and fixed it so it hung lower in the front.
"Just be careful," I said quietly. "We'll go sometime next week and I'll wash some clothes when I get home," she nodded and rubbed her hands on my chest.
"Can you get me some strawberry flavored apple sauce," she asked. I licked my lips and nodded. She's totally turning me on just standing here.
"Why did your eyes get all glazed over," she asked. I smiled.
"No reason," I said quickly. She smiled and sat her hands on my waist.
"Anything else you want," I asked.
"You," she said. I smiled and kissed her nose.
"Anything else," she shook her head no. "Alright I'll be back in like five minutes," I said. She nodded. I looked at the guys. "Ya'll want anything," I asked as Cameron rubbed her hands up and down my chest. I took her hands in mine. "Stop," I said quietly with a smile.
"Sorry," she said like she didn't know what she had done. I smiled and looked back at the guys. They were shaking their heads.
"What are we eating," Lance asked.
"We have all that leftover stuff from Thanksgiving but I can pick up anything you want," I said letting go of Cameron's hands.
"Aye make that chilly stuff you made that one time," Joey said. I looked at Cameron and her eyes were glazed over. That's her favorite and I know she's hungry, but she can't eat that now.
"Naw," I said.
"Why that is some good stuff," Chris asked.
"Because it's Cameron's favorite and she can't eat it. So it would be unfair of me to make it," I said. Everyone sighed and rolled their eyes and everything. I wanted to tell them to get the hell out my house if they had a problem with that but Cameron stopped me.
"No sweetie go ahead and make it. I'll warm up some of that broth and then just go to sleep. Don't worry about me," she said.
"Cameron it's your favorite food. I don't want to tempt you to eat something that could kill your stomach," I said. She smiled.
"Baby just make it. I mean they want it," she said looking at the guys. I glanced their way and they were nodding. "I can do it. Don't worry about me," she said. I bit my lip and chewed at it. "Sweetie it's ok I promise. I'll go eat right now so when you start making food I won't be hungry," I sighed.
"You're sure," I asked.
"She's sure," Chris said a little irritated.
"Shut up," I said angrily. Cameron rubbed the side of my face.
"Hey," she said turning my head back towards her. I looked in her calm eyes. "It's fine. I'll go see what you need to buy," she said and walked away. I ran my tongue over my teeth and the room was silent. I wasn't about to apologize for my outburst. They made me really mad. Like they couldn't think of something else. The only reason why I know how to make it is because Cameron's mom taught me. It's the exact way Cameron likes it and I don't want her to be tempted to just even take a small taste. It would kill her and she would be in so much pain.
"Justin," I looked up with my eyes but didn't change my stance.
"What," I said dryly.
"I didn't mean to upset you," Chris said. I didn't say anything. "You aren't going to say anything," he asked.
"Nope," I said as Cameron walked back out with a list. She ran her fingers through over her curly hair and stopped beside me holding the list so we could both see it.
"Just get like some ground beef and three red and green peppers,” she said softly. I nodded and red over the list of all the spices that were written down in her bubbly hand writing.
"What about that other stuff," I asked.
"My mom gave me some so we have plenty of that," she said. I nodded and stuck the list in my pocket and pulled my keys out my pocket. "I'm going to go slurp at my broth and I'll help," she said.
"No I want you to rest," I said looking in her eyes. She smiled.
"Ok," she said. I nodded and walked outside. I shook my head as I climbed in the car. I really don't want to do this. It's too much of a problem for Cameron.
I stirred the thick soup like stuff and the smell filled the entire house. It looks really good. I looked outside at Cameron. She was sitting on the swinging bench reading a book. I sighed. She's staying away because like I said she got tempted and wanted a taste. I'm pissed off cause she can't come inside her own house. I could have ordered some pizza or even made pasta but they had to have gumbo. I lifted the pot off the heat and started scooping it out the pot and putting it on top of the rice.
"Aye if you want food get in here," I yelled. It was like a stampede. Everyone grabbed a plate and left. I dumped the rest of the contents in a Tupperware container and slipped it in the back of the refrigerator. I looked and everyone was gone including the bowls. I shook my head. "You're welcome I glad you like it. It was no problem slaving over a stove so that you could have some damn food," I said quietly to myself. I slammed the door and everything jingled. I pulled out two small mugs and lifted the small pot off the stove and poured the broth into them. I picked up two spoons and the mugs and walked outside. "Hey there," I said quietly. Cameron looked up from watching Jaden sleeping in the little rocker in front of her and smiled.
"What you got there," she asked. I sat down beside her and handed her a mug.
"Only the best broth on the face of the earth," I said and took a sip of my own. She smiled at me. I sat back it wasn't that great but hey it will do. "I wish this is all I had to eat everyday. This is the bomb girl," I said and took another sip. She dipped her spoon in it and took a sip.
"You don't have to eat this," she said quietly.
"Are you kidding. I rather eat this any day," I said and stuck my spoon in it and drank some more. She leaned over and kissed my lips softly. "What was that for," I asked. She sipped her liquid.
"For being a great husband," she said. I smiled and sipped the liquid again.
"Don't worry about it," I said and pushed off the ground. And we swung sipping our liquid and talking about everything.
I stood in the mirror and twisted at one of my curls that wouldn't stay down. I really need a haircut but Cameron likes it long so I'm trying to keep it this long for as long as I can. The door opened and I looked at Cameron. She still had on my shirt and it had snuck up again. Probably when she climbed the stairs. I guess she noticed me staring at her and she pulled it down.
"Ewe baby who are you trying to look sexy for," she said and walked up behind me and lifted up my tight gray shirt rubbing her hands on my abs.
"Girl if you don't stop," I said referring to her touching me. She stuck her hands in my pockets and put her head on my back.
"What time are you coming home," she whispered. I dropped my arms and rubbed my hands on top of hers.
"I don't know baby. What time do you want me home," I asked.
"Before the sun rises," she said. I smiled.
"Of course," I whispered. She sighed. "What you got planned for tonight," I asked.
"Jackie went out to rent some girl movies and we're going to cry all night," she said. I smiled. "Since you want watch them with me," she said. Jackie had come over because I asked her to watch over Cameron. She hadn’t gotten really sick today and I’m afraid it would happen when no one was here.
"I watched Casablanca with you," I said.
"Yeah well we are watching Steel Magnolias, Terms of Endearment, and Beaches. So when you watch those with me then you have experienced the girl movies," she said. I turned around and took her hands in mine. I sat back on the dresser and she stepped between my legs.
"You going to be ok," I asked. She smiled and nodded.
"Yeah, I'll be fine. Me and Jackie are going to have a girl's night. Maybe I'll go to bed early," she said. I sighed.
"You think you'll be able to sleep tonight," I asked. She shrugged. This new medicine the doctor put her on keeps her up. Normally I wake up and she's watching TV.
"Go have a fun night and do whatever. But remember what's waiting at home for you," she said. I smiled and pulled at one of her springy curls.
"And what's that," I asked. She smiled and flipped up her shirt. My eyes got huge.
"This," she said and smiled as she dropped her shirt. I bent over laughing. She bit her tongue as she skipped out the room. I shook my head and picked up my leather coat and walked out the room still laughing hard. I went down the stairs and looked at Cameron sitting on the couch with her legs pulled up close to her body and the guys were standing around the staircase.
"Finally," JC said. I smiled and walked down the rest of the stairs. Jackie jumped over the couch as Cameron whispered something to her. She busted out laughing and almost fell off the couch. I smiled knowing what they were talking about.
"You girls going to be ok," Joey asked and walked over to Jackie. They mess around when they are together.
"Yeah we're going to watch sexy men on the beach," she said and held up a movie.
"I thought you were having a girls night," I said.
"We are," Cameron said.
"We are two girls that are going to watch sexy guys tonight," she said. They gave each other a high five.
"You are watching porn," JC asked.
"Ewe no," Cameron said. She looked at her friend and Jackie raised her eyebrows. "Ok well maybe," she said.
"But hello you guys are looking at the real thing when we are here," Jackie said.
"You wait a couple hours and you can have the real thing," Joey said. I laughed.
"I think I'm going to settle for Spring Break Guys gone wild and College guy special," Jackie said. I laughed and looked at Cameron. She smiled and I looked down at my watch. It was almost twelve.
"Aye let's go," Chris said. Everyone headed out and Jackie was putting the tape in the VCR. I walked over to the couch and knelled down.
"I'll see you later alright," I said. She smiled.
"Have fun," she said.
"Not as much as I would have if I were home," I said and rubbed the side of her face. She smiled.
"Hurry up then," she said.
"Is that a promise," I asked. She nodded. I smiled and kissed her putting my hand behind her head pulling her closer for a deeper kiss. I turned my head to the side and really got into it.
"Justin," someone called. But I wasn't hearing any of it. I was way too involved it this intense kiss. I massaged her tongue with mine and she put her hand on the side of my face. "Justin," someone yelled again. I ignored it again realizing how powerful this kiss actually is and not wanting to pull out of it anytime soon. Cameron pulled back and traced my lips with her tongue then kissed me and sat back.
"Think about that while you get your table dance," she said. I licked my lip and smiled.
"You are dangerous," I said as she smiled.
"Justin now," Joey yelled.
"One minute," I said. "I'll wake you when I get home," I asked. She nodded. "Ok," I said and leaned in kissing her again. She moved her head and intensified the kiss until two people grabbed my arms pulling me away. I stood up and walked backwards out the house. "I love you," I called and the door closed. I took my arms back and climbed in the back of the car. This better be worth it cause it will take a lot to surpass that.
I sat back in the chair and looked up at the brunette standing on the table in front of me. She really is beautiful. We got a separate room and we already did the runway thing. I think I've spent about three hundred dollars. Chris put a dollar in his mouth and the girl leaned down and took it. I shook my head and smiled. The girl turned to me and twisted in front of me. She sat down on the table in front of me and kicked her legs up on my shoulders. Chris smiled and clapped. "I don't want to do this," I said quietly. She slid down on my lap.
"What sweetie," she said. Well it was too late. I shook my head and she started moving around and everything. I looked over at JC and he was laughing and pointing at me. She reached back and pulled off her top. I had no where to look. This is bad. This is really bad. I wrapped my hands around the legs of the chair so I wasn't tempted to touch her. She moved around and I pressed my lips together. Oh give me strength! "You want to touch me," she asked. I shook my head no. "You sure cause you can," she said. I shook my head no again as she started moving really slow. I touched the top of lip with the tip of my tongue and looked down. "You want to go in the back," she asked.
"Naw," I said quietly. She grabbed the back of the chair and pressed her body up close to mine. I was beyond turned on. She rubbed her hand on the side of my face.
"Come on just for a little while," she said. I shook my head. She leaned in and kissed me with out any warning and with out hesitation I kissed her back. Not thinking about what I was doing or anything. She pulled back and smiled as she climbed off me. I opened my eyes and realized what I had just done.
"Oh shit," I said and put my head down. I grabbed my hair and started pulling at it. "Oh I am so fucked," I said and sat up.
"Justin what in the hell was that," JC asked.
"Damnit," I said and covered my eyes. I stood up and paced across the floor. I slammed my hand up against the wall. What was I thinking? I kissed another girl. I have never knowingly kissed another girl back like I just kissed her. "What am I going to do," I asked and slid down the wall.
"Don't tell her," Joey said.
"Yeah right," I said looking in his eyes. "So some newspaper can get to it first and then I really loose her," I asked. He shook his head. I put head down on my knees. "She's going to leave me," I whispered. "A striper," I mumbled to myself. “I shouldn’t have come. I knew I shouldn’t have come. She has cancer and I cheated on her with a stripper,” I whispered.
"Come on Justin let's go home," Lance said. I stood up and walked out the club about to burst into tears.
I walked around outside for about an hour thinking about what I was going to say. I want to cry but I can't because I don't have a right to cry. Not now at least. I messed up and if I go in there like I'm the victim, I don't deserve any sympathy. I sat down on the stair and looked down at my watch. Four thirty, I know Cameron is worrying now. I mean everyone else is chilling inside and I'm sitting outside. I slowly stood up and pushed open the door. Everyone turned and looked at me. Cameron smiled.
"You thought over all your sins," she said and smiled. I looked down as she walked over to me. She rubbed her hands on my waist. "Don't I get a kiss," she asked and rubbed her hands up my chest. I swallowed hard and took her hands in mine.
"I need to tell you something," I said quietly holding her small hands. I stared at the ground afraid that if I looked up I would see the innocence in her eyes and get really worked up.
"What is it sexy man," I bit my lip and looked away. "I bet it's not as bad as you think it is," she said sweetly. I looked back down. "Just tell me. I won't be mad," she said. I shook my head and closed my eyes. "What baby," she said. I took a deep breath and prepared for what ever that was about to happen.
"I kissed another girl," I said quietly and looked in her eyes. Her eyes were searching mine for truth.
"What," she whispered.
"A girl was dancing and I kissed her," I said not getting into all the details. She slipped her hands out of mine and walked into the kitchen. I sat down on the floor and looked at her standing outside with her hands on her hips and the wind blowing her little pajama pants.
"You kissed another girl and then came home and told your wife that has cancer you did so. Could you possibly of waited for a better time," Jackie said. I looked down. "That was real smart Justin," she said and walked away. I covered my face with my hands and tried not to cry. I put my head back and looked at Cameron and Jackie standing outside talking. I could tell she was upset. She was moving her hands around and looking up at the sky. I looked away from everything and wished I hadn't gone. The door opened and Cameron walking back inside. Her face was pale and her eyes were red. I stood up and looked in her eyes.
"I love you and I can't help this...I can't. Sometimes I think you are the best guy in the world and I wonder what I did to deserve you," she paused and looked up. "But then things like this happen and I tell myself this isn't going to happen again. He won't do it again. But you went to Britney. You kissed Britney. You brought Britney on tour. And now you kissed a stripper. A stripper Justin," she said looking in my eyes. "Do you realize that. Some girl you never met got a piece of you that you are supposed to only share with me," I chewed at the inside of my lip. "Look at me Justin. I have a stomach cancer. I HAVE CANCER,” she yelled. “We have a baby together and you go and kiss a stripper. You have broken my heart once again and this time I don’t think I can take it. I can't do it. I won't do it to myself anymore," she said and wiped her eyes.
“Cameron it’s not like that,” Chris started trying to help but I knew it wasn’t going to work.
“What do you mean it’s not like that. You took my husband to a strip club. Well I hope you guys are happy now. You got your stud back,” she said and tried not to cry. "I love you. But I can't," she whispered. “And I'm sorry but this isn't going to work. A stripper. That's taking it way to far," she said and slipped the rings off her fingers and they dropped in my lap. She walked up the stairs and the door closed. My body was numb. I picked up the rings and looked at them in my hand.
"Did she break up with me," I asked myself quietly. "Oh God she broke up with me," I cried. My hand was shaking so bad and the rings wouldn't sit in my hands. I dropped them on the floor and it felt like my soul rolled away with all three rings. I slowly fell over and landed in a ball on the floor crying uncontrollably. OH MY GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?"
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